genesis

I've felt like Jacob wrestling the angel for most of today. I think the match is finally drawing to a close.

oh elise it doesn't matter what you say
i just can't stay here every yesterday
like keep on acting out the same
the way we act out every way to smile, forget
and make believe we never needed
any more than this

and every time i try to pick it up like falling sand
as fast as i pick it up it runs away through my clutching hands

but there's nothing else i can really do