i can't wait

I feel much calmer today. I got a little crazy last night, I think. I'm still smarting, but that's the way these things go. No biggie.

one more thing

Yesterday I was angry, and today I am sad.

And I just came to understand a key component of that sadness. That is that I really, truly believe that she will not find happiness with him. This conviction has nothing to do with wounded pride or my own interest in her. Even if we were completely platonic friends and had no romantic interest in each other whatsoever, I'd believe that as strongly as I believe it now. I truly care about her, and it breaks my heart to see her willingly go back to that situation.

I'm sorry to keep harping on this, but it's really thrown me for a loop.

another pleasing realization

Listening to the track, "Why Does This Always Happen To Me?" on Poodle Hat, by Weird Al, I always thought the song, especially the piano playing, had a distinctly Ben Folds cast to it, like maybe he was parodying Ben Folds. But, as it turns out, it's ACTUALLY Ben Folds on piano! Not only am I really pleased that I picked that out, but I think it's awesome that those two collaborated on a song. Somehow that just makes me feel warm inside, like the universe is a friendly place, after all.

I really love those guys. And that song is awesome.